Healing of the Bride

Hello Everyone,
I hadn’t planned on releasing anymore words so soon but God clearly has other ideas. I have been sitting on a word and have been unsure as to when the time would be for me to release on a large scale what Jesus has said and done for me but it is clear that this is the time. The other day I was reading a passage out of one of Kevin Zadai’s books where he talks about 4 ways that Jesus heals emotional wounds, one of the ways is where Jesus waves his hand over someone’s heart. Today, I just read a word by Lana Vawser where she had an encounter with the Lord and saw the Lord placing his hand on people’s hearts and healing them of emotional trauma. I got to say, both of these are right on and after two confirmations, I believe it is time to share what happened to me. Back this past May, I found myself still struggling with trauma related to spiritual abuse that I had lived with for years. There was a long time that I couldn’t pray or read my bible or anything because the pain was just so excruciating to me from it all. I felt like I meant nothing to God and what was worse I was having to fake it to make it in front of my kids and try to hide from them how bad things were because I wanted them to be saved. All I wanted for was for them to be raised with a Godly heritage and instead, I felt like the walking dead on the inside and had nothing to give them so I tried to put on a happy face and keep going and hope they didn’t see through me. I sought help and went to a Christian psychiatrist and I had received counseling and a lot of it. I had also thoroughly studied the subject and even written a college paper on it so I received a measure of healing through those activities. The psychiatrist pulled me in after a year with him and talked with me and asked me how I was managing and where I was at and I told him honestly, and then he informed me that since I had come in, he had experienced an influx of Christians experiencing the same problem and even asked me for my research as he thought that it would be beneficial in helping him with his patients. After some time, I got to where I could pray and talk to God some, but nothing like where I was when I was first saved and I wanted that back so much. I eventually was able to read my bible and incorporate prayer more after the Lord sent me a dream and compelled me to really try again. So fast forward to last May I found myself very discouraged because I realized that I still had traumatic reactions to triggers related to the abuse. I managed to reason with myself but it took about two months for me to push through it and the day I did I had an encounter with the Lord that has forever changed me. I saw Jesus and he appeared as my groom and then also he was my doctor, he reached over and laid his hand over my heart and I was thinking what in the world is he doing? Then suddenly I felt the greatest love that I ever felt wash over me and I felt that I was his beloved and that I was the most special person in the world to him and that I was the most blessed bride ever and I was just filled with his love and I felt like a queen. Then he says now I have to go prepare for the wedding, but I’ll be back and I want you to prepare too. Then I came out of it and I said “Lord, was that really you?” Then he did it again and repeated the visitation to me and I was like, “Oh yeah, that was him alright.” It was just so incredulous and I wish I could describe with words better what Jesus did for me that day, but sometimes some things just have to be experienced rather than taught. I asked Jesus why he did that for me and he told me that this trauma had been a barrier to the intimacy that he wanted with me and he removed it and healed me in an instant. Counseling and study could only take me so far, it couldn’t heal me from the trauma of it, but Jesus could and did that day. Just feeling how much he loved me as his groom and that he was my doctor who laid his hand over my heart and healed me was just an unbelievably amazing experience. Now, I have the joy of the Lord back. He helped me see scriptures more clearly that I missed before. He showed me the meaning of visions and dreams that I’d had years ago but didn’t understand and my calling and assignments. I am in my second honeymoon with the Lord and it is better than the first and I am wiser this time around so that someone is not gonna pull the wool over this girls eyes again like what happened to me when I was a baby Christian. God is ready to heal others who have suffered from the trauma of abuse. He walked me through it and there was a time, that I didn’t think it was ever gonna happen but it did. He is calling out to the dry bones from the bodies that were used up like an old horse and left to die. He’s calling to them and saying, “Come four winds and breath upon these slain that they may live again.” You thought your time was over, but like Moses in the desert after much time has elapsed, now your time has come and you haven’t seen anything yet of all the good that the Lord your God will do for you and with you. God is raising up this group of people who will be father’s and mother’s to those who will come in during this last harvest. Those who will be the Eliakim’s of this generation, Reference Isaiah 22:20-23, who will have a father’s heart for the newborns and who will protect and care for the little lambs. Who will instruct them in sound doctrine, the doctrine of Christ and who will warn them against the doctrines of men. I pray now that what God did for me, will be done exponentially for everyone in need of healing from the trauma of spiritual abuse and any kind of abuse for that matter. I ask you Jesus to lay your hand on the heart of everyone in need of this healing and for it to be done in an instant, like it was for me and for the Love of Jesus, our groom, to come in like a flood so that all may know the Joy of the Lord and the Love of the Lord as never before. Let everyone be healed from trauma completely, in the name of Jesus I pray, amen.